Episode Four

[mandy]

Hi, my name is Mandy & I officially suck at puzzles (thanks, Tommy lol)





Please excuse the fact that right eye looks really wonky lol... not sure what's going on. also, i accidently shut my camera off before I finished talking, but I was pretty much done anyway.... lol. 


I really hope this isn't the end... but if it is, rip me  


I'm posting another confessional because I am very nervous. Unfortunately I thought Caroline was someone that could be trusted and I feel like a fool. I'm really thankful to Grace right now and Austin as well. Anie is still someone I trust 100%. I had a long conversation with Morgen earlier and I will post that conversation when I get home from work and I can get on skype on my computer.. I feel like it's a conversation worthy of making my confessional... sigh. *fingers crossed* i can survive this judgement, but sadly I feel like my days may be numbered either way I'M NOT READY! I'm legit upset.


Conversation with Morgen:

[9:53:34 AM] Host iS Mandy: hey morgen. I'm probably one your least favorite people and I get it, before al of this blew up, I wanted to talk to you about potentially working with you. obviously now, I'm not in a good position in the game, but I still wanted to reach out to you. VS was in shape or form made to take our girls, and I hope if you believe anything I say, I hope that's it.

[12:00:55 PM] Host iS Mandy: some things were said and I'm sorry. obviously I had initial thoughts but after getting to know you, my mind has been changed. you probably don't believe me at all and I don't blame you, but I just wanted to reach out to you regardless

[12:13:30 PM] Morgen Cavanah: VS was in shape or form made to take our girls, and I hope if you believe anything I say, I hope that's it.- is that missing a word? sorry im trying to understand it

[12:13:55 PM] Host iS Mandy: was in no shape or form

[12:14:05 PM] Host iS Mandy: fuck I typed it really fast as I was driving to work

[12:14:22 PM] Host iS Mandy: and take out * not our

[12:17:21 PM] Host iS Mandy: I'm pretty sure you want me out, and I understand. I just hope we can start fresh

[12:30:48 PM] Morgen Cavanah: I think you just decided I wasn't "your type" of person and idk how we can fix that

[12:33:07 PM] Morgen Cavanah: you havent talked to me in 6 days idk when you changed your mind

[12:33:39 PM] Host iS Mandy: I mean my first impression of you, yes.. you weren't my #1 person. I was planning on talking to you yesterday before all of this blew up

[12:34:39 PM] Host iS Mandy: if you vote me, I'll understand why

[12:34:49 PM] Host iS Mandy: I just hope I can make it up to you somehow

[12:49:52 PM] Morgen Cavanah: yeah trying to get me off your hands I understand

[12:50:08 PM] Morgen Cavanah: but like if you dont think I should vote you then who should I vote

[12:54:37 PM] Host iS Mandy: I wasn't trying to get you off my hands. I was thinking how my idea of you changed, but clearly you don't believe me and I get it

[12:54:55 PM] Host iS Mandy: I can't tell you how to vote, I believe you already made up your mind.

[12:55:21 PM] Host iS Mandy: but Caroline felt the same way I did originally and she made it seem like it was just me

[12:55:44 PM] Host iS Mandy: my back is against the wall

[12:58:05 PM] Morgen Cavanah: i definitely want to hear what you have to say and am glad to talk

[12:58:27 PM] Morgen Cavanah: and this is hard for me as well

[12:58:39 PM] Morgen Cavanah: cause like I never ever wanted to vote a girl out if I didnt have to

[1:00:14 PM] Host iS Mandy: I'll be completely honest, I like you, but what rubbed me the wrong way was how for awhile one day everything was about if someone was hot or not to you. it got under my skin a little bit. i pride myself on being an honest person, so I should have just came to you and I'm sorry

[1:08:17 PM] Morgen Cavanah: I appreciate the candor

[1:08:36 PM] Morgen Cavanah: The reason I am so complimentary is cause I did not receive many compliments growing for a lot of reasons

[1:08:45 PM] Morgen Cavanah: but mainly cause I was fat poor and ugly

[1:09:10 PM] Host iS Mandy: I'm not saying this bc I feel like my back is against the wall, but I think you're really pretty

[1:09:24 PM] Morgen Cavanah: and its nice that you are telling the truth cause some of the girls are still trying to lie about dumb shti

[1:09:42 PM] Host iS Mandy: and fuck the haters that call you fat. I've had countless people ask me if I was pregnant before and I'm not (and wasn't)

[1:10:10 PM] Host iS Mandy: I don't want to lie at all. I really want to lay everything out on the table and show all my cards so to speak.

[1:10:22 PM] Host iS Mandy: I want to prove to you that I'm someone that can be trusted

[1:17:57 PM] Morgen Cavanah: lol, thats cool of you. I really appreciate what you've had to say and am definitely going to think about it. I want to make the right decisions and go with my head over my heart. No matter what happens, no grudges and no bitterness on my end towards you

[1:19:21 PM] Host iS Mandy: thank you. I'm glad to hear you'll at least think about it, and no matter what I'm not bitter either and if it me that goes, I hope we remain friends