Post by mandy on Oct 12, 2015 15:54:15 GMT -5
So Sean was voted out.. and apparently this was the plan all along... good thing I knew about it and I'm in the majority, right? Good thing I was added to the chat that planned this whole thing, right? WRONG. I'm insulted that these people who I really thought I could trust had my back are lying right to my face even now. Kim was let in on all of this this morning while I'm still being lied to and being told this chat was formed last night when I went to bed and I would have probably been added and let in on the plan if I didn't go to sleep. yeah.. ok. I believe that.
Clearly I'm not in a good spot. Clearly, most people left in this game know way more than I do and clearly they don't feel like I'm someone they don't want to tell this information to. I've never felt more on the outs and more betrayed. Here's hoping I can pull out a win (or even Kim can pull out a win) or this next challenge because otherwise, this twist is most definitely not going to work out in my favor.
I thought Grace was with me and was loyal to me. I know I was loyal to her, but clearly I'm a damn fool. I thought Austin had my back and was telling me the truth, but he's more tight lipped now than anyone. I always felt like a little uneasy about Klein, but I thought he was someone who was more or less loyal to me as well. Kim is really the only person I have right now, and I'm not even 100% sure where her head is at.
I thought the shirt I was wearing earlier was perfect for this situation.
... although now I'm not freaking out, I'm just fuming a little bit. ok, maybe a lot. Long story short, if my days are numbered, I've had so much fun, but the majority of the people still in the game have decided that I have a f3 deal (which I knew nothing about) and that I'm not someone they want to allign with or share information with. They think they're playing my game for me and it's frustrating. I have a feeling that being in Europe and dealing with this time difference may be an issue, but It's not a be all end all.
I am officially feeling defeated and extremely vulnerable. & it broke my heart to hear Kim bawling on call last night. </3
This game has been filled with one shit storm of drama after the other.... as said in MTV's "Faking it" ..... "get the toilet paper because shit is about to get real". Let's be honest. Shit has gotten really real a long time ago. Forget toilet paper, we need a fucking umbrella for all this shit now..
I'm enjoying a big glass of wine while I do the challenge all myself lol... here goes nothing (wish me luck)
.. I filmed an apartment tour (finally), so when it finally decides to upload, I'll post it.. it's taking forever to upload, but if I survive this round, I'll post it plus my new apartment in Florence (oh yeah... we took a train to Florence this morning lol) if YouTube deicides to stop being lame... but for now, I made another confessional bc SURPRISE i lost the immunity challenge (eye roll). I'm holding my phone wrong, so the video isn't full screen, but what the fuck ever.
I find it interesting that I'm getting private messages from almost the whole cast after they contributed to my horrible challenge score... idek what to think anymore.
Clearly I'm not in a good spot. Clearly, most people left in this game know way more than I do and clearly they don't feel like I'm someone they don't want to tell this information to. I've never felt more on the outs and more betrayed. Here's hoping I can pull out a win (or even Kim can pull out a win) or this next challenge because otherwise, this twist is most definitely not going to work out in my favor.
I thought Grace was with me and was loyal to me. I know I was loyal to her, but clearly I'm a damn fool. I thought Austin had my back and was telling me the truth, but he's more tight lipped now than anyone. I always felt like a little uneasy about Klein, but I thought he was someone who was more or less loyal to me as well. Kim is really the only person I have right now, and I'm not even 100% sure where her head is at.
I thought the shirt I was wearing earlier was perfect for this situation.
... although now I'm not freaking out, I'm just fuming a little bit. ok, maybe a lot. Long story short, if my days are numbered, I've had so much fun, but the majority of the people still in the game have decided that I have a f3 deal (which I knew nothing about) and that I'm not someone they want to allign with or share information with. They think they're playing my game for me and it's frustrating. I have a feeling that being in Europe and dealing with this time difference may be an issue, but It's not a be all end all. I am officially feeling defeated and extremely vulnerable. & it broke my heart to hear Kim bawling on call last night. </3
This game has been filled with one shit storm of drama after the other.... as said in MTV's "Faking it" ..... "get the toilet paper because shit is about to get real". Let's be honest. Shit has gotten really real a long time ago. Forget toilet paper, we need a fucking umbrella for all this shit now..
I'm enjoying a big glass of wine while I do the challenge all myself lol... here goes nothing (wish me luck)
.. I filmed an apartment tour (finally), so when it finally decides to upload, I'll post it.. it's taking forever to upload, but if I survive this round, I'll post it plus my new apartment in Florence (oh yeah... we took a train to Florence this morning lol) if YouTube deicides to stop being lame... but for now, I made another confessional bc SURPRISE i lost the immunity challenge (eye roll). I'm holding my phone wrong, so the video isn't full screen, but what the fuck ever.
I find it interesting that I'm getting private messages from almost the whole cast after they contributed to my horrible challenge score... idek what to think anymore.